When it rains look for rainbows

  “When it rains look for rainbows, when it’s dark look for stars.” – Oscar Wilde     I came across this quote a few days ago and instantly loved it. For me, the quote says that we can find beauty and positives in our lives, even in the darkest of days. When it rains we get beautiful rainbows, and when it’s dark we get beautiful stars. My life has been pretty tough for a few years, but I am now starting to come out of the other side. I’ve got Endometriosis and PCOS which seem to be worsening, affecting my quality of life. As a result of these two conditions, I have struggled to conceive a much desired second baby. Then, this time last year, I found out I was pregnant. It should have been a magical time, but it wasn’t. I knew from the minute I saw the positive pregnancy test that there was a problem. It just didn’t feel right. Unfortunately, I was right, the pregnancy was ectopic. A combination of my worsening health, infertility, and then the ectopic pregnancy meant that the weeks and months that followed found me reaching lows I didn’t think possible. Over the past year, I have struggled to accept what happened with the baby and I’ve been angry with the Universe. There were days I didn’t want to get out of bed or see anyone. I wondered how I’d get through the hours, never mind the days, weeks and months. I became depressed, lost the joy in life, and somewhere along the way, I lost myself. Weirdly, losing the baby made me appreciative of everything I already have in my life. This appreciation is definitely my rainbow and stars. The quote is so relevant because a year on from the ectopic pregnancy, my life is so different. I feel like a different person completely. Some days are still a struggle, but I have mostly managed to move away from the dark and the rain clouds. Coming across the quote was a reminder to continue to chase the rainbows and swim with the stars. The rain and dark was my health problems and the pregnancy loss. When I let myself look for rainbows and stars I was able to see that I already have everything I’ve ever dreamed of, and her name is Molly! Yes, our journey may be tough at times, but there are always positives to be found if we are willing to look for them. Things will get easier; just take one step at a time and let yourself see the rainbows and stars over the rain and dark. This really is one of my favourite quotes and I think I’ll always remember it. What are your favourite quotes? Sam x