I am the author of my life story, so why the bloody hell am I sat here sulking about things I’m not happy with? If we want something we should take some responsibility and go and get it. Shouldn’t we? So far in my life, I think I have pretty much written my story the way I wanted it to be. So what’s the problem now?
I wanted to leave stress and negativity behind, so I started living a healthier lifestyle. I started eating better, working out more, and meditating. Then, I started the Serenely Sam blog.
So why, after only 3 months as Serenely Sam, have I found myself struggling to write? I sat down on three separate occasions to write and came up with nothing. Honestly, I must have at least 100 post ideas, yet I’d still sit staring at the page or screen for hours, having written nothing.
I told Chris I was thinking about giving up blogging altogether. He was shocked, to say the least, as he told me I couldn’t quit because “you love writing and you’re really into all this wellness stuff!” He was right. I do love writing and I am ‘into all this wellness stuff’.
The problem is, I have been so concerned with making sure I had content for the blog and raising my stats as fast as I could, that I wasn’t actually focusing on my wellness. I was making myself stressy. How could I write anything if I couldn’t focus on the writing?
I guess the point I am trying to make is that because I am the author of my life story, as you are yours, then I should write my story exactly how I want it to be. Other people will feature in my story, but ultimately, nobody else can write it for me.
This also means I write the story of my blog too. Yes, blogs need consistency, and yes, I want it to be a source of income, but should these things come at the expense of my mental health? I think the serene life I want is more important than achieving a good DA score or a certain number of page views.
At the end of the day, stats aren’t the be-all and end-all. That could be applied to many life situations actually, couldn’t it? The bigger picture is more important. I will spend time focussing on my blog, but I will focus on my wellness more.
Are you living the life you want to or do you need to edit your story a little bit too?